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it's totally fine, we're figuring out how to make it easier to have so many people!

you know you're welcome to staying as long as you want, rinchan

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thanks im gonna come by now okay?

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sure thing, i'm here~

[There was something worrying about how Rin was texting him. The words felt disjointed, and it wasn't his usual style of text in the slightest, so Oikawa hung out by the gym doors themselves. He could have spent the time just keeping busy, but he was worried enough to loiter without anything else there to keep his attention.]

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[ It's revealing that Rin doesn't trust himself enough to maintain his facades today, to trust being able to be around others who might question it, might express concern. As such, he's been avoiding most people, Hiro and Keisuke (plus Akira) in particular. But even then... he doesn't want to be alone. Doesn't want to have to deal with his thoughts and feelings that have been dug up so freshly with nothing else to distract him. It's a moment of weakness, at least he would consider it in such a way, but he lets him reach out, even minorly. When Rin arrives, there's high tension in his usual confident ease of movement, and the smile he offers isn't as convincing as he can usually make them, but then again Oikawa's already seen him in some of his moments where he lacks cheerful airs. ] Hey. Were you doing anything? [ His questioning gaze almost... begs for that to be true, for something to take his mind off what's transpired today. ]

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[He can see that tension like a light in the darkness - Rin isn't okay, not right now. Not today. Someone must have shown up is all Oikawa can think from their earlier conversation and the state Rin is in now, that when Rin asks and that look on his face is downright hopeful, Oikawa passes over saying nothing, I was studying the ceiling and instead smiles when he slips his arm around his friends shoulders. Tugging him in and slouching lightly so they can walk, he hums thoughtfully.]

Well, I waaas thinking about doing some drills, but now I'm thinking a nap might be nice. Want to come sleep with me, Rin-chan? [Privacy, to talk rather than sleep, but putting on a show about taking a nap would keep him from feeling less stressed.]

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[ He stills, for but a moment, before letting himself relax a little - it's a friendly touch, familiar hold, and Rin can companionably lean into Oikawa's side as they walk without preamble. ] Don't you get bored of practicing all the time? [ He's teasing mostly, a glimmer of mischief in his otherwise dully lit gaze. It lacks the usual spark, almost tired. ] As long as I'm not stealing you away from your teammates~ I wouldn't mind. [ Even if he wouldn't be able to sleep if he wanted to - that's hard enough to do on better days. ]

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Does it look like anyone is around to be needing my attention? It's just you, Rin-chan, you have my full attention! I get bored sometimes, but if I don't put in the time, how am I going to get any better?

[Laughing mildly and guiding him all the way back to the storage room doors, Oikawa easily works it open before walking with Rin in and shutting it behind them - then moving to the far corner where he and Iwaizumi have a sort of nest made up with a wrestling mat, bed roll and one skimpy little blanket. Rin might recognize the heart shaped pillow, but Oikawa would argue that keeping it was just for having something useful. It certainly wasn't something he wanted to keep otherwise.]

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[ Rin follows along, lingering at the doors for a few moments before he moves toward the corner behind Oikawa. ] Thanks. [ He really does appreciate it, but expressing that is somewhat awkward for him, so he sticks to the quiet, small word of gratitude. He moves closer, sitting at the edge of the mat rather than where he assumes his friend might seat himself. ] I guess that's true. You want to be the best at the sport, right?

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I am the best setter in the prefecture, or at least I've been getting nice awards every year since middle school telling me so.

[He lets Rin get away with that soft word of thanks, knowing it must be hard to actually say - so once Rin has settled down at the mat, Oikawa kneels down beside him and gives a light little push to make him lay down. Use the pillow Rin-chan, use the blankets and the pillow and the slightly worn mat that is beginning to show its regular use.]

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[ There's the slightest widening of his eyes at the push, but he follows the silent suggestion, laying down first on his back before he shifts onto his side, curling up almost into a ball with his back to the wall defensively. It isn't anything personal. He must look so small, especially with how deflated his whole demeanour is, and Rin's gaze flickers up to look at Oikawa before he fixates his vision on the mat beneath him. ] Had no idea you were that good. Has your team been winning tournaments?

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We would get pretty far, but unfortunately we never could get past the finals and be the best of Miyagi prefecture.

[He chuckles with that, smiling, but there's a bitterness to his expression when he shifts to move and settle down - he's just laying in front of him, reaching out to let one arm drape on Rin's shoulder but not to pull him closer. He can come in for warmth as he needs to, Oikawa is just here to keep him company.]

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[ Rin wants to tease him about it, light-heartedly as always with someone he likes, but he can sense that bitterness, can understand it, if in somewhat of a different way. So those words don't make it past the thought stage. ] I guess our teams were a lot different in that way. [ It takes him a few subtle moments of indecision before he curls closer. He is, clearly, hesitant to do so, but he'd already allowed himself to seek Oikawa out for comfort in the first place - what's the harm in seeking it in a physical manner as well? ] Isn't there always next time? [ A next fight, a next tournament, a next potential win. ]

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Mm, there were always next times. The last chance we had, we were beaten finally, so we didn't even get our last rematch against our rivals. At least, our team as it was, doesn't have a next time. There's always college, but it's not quite... the same.

[He's glad when Rin doesn't tease, he could sense it there in the way they just are with each other - instead, Oikawa just smiles when Rin scoots in and he reaches to smooth his hand over his shoulder again, coaxing him in until they were downright cuddling. He curls up with Iwaizumi like this all the time, so it doesn't even phase him as being something strange.]

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[ It makes him feel... vulnerable, admittedly, curling up with someone like this and speaking about their respective teams while he's feeling so thrown off-kilter and emotional. Rin doesn't move away though, can't bring himself to just yet. ] Yeah, you won't have the same people, so it isn't really... your team anymore. [ He mumbles it to himself mostly, but their close proximity makes it easy for Oikawa to hear him. ] That time is lost, you can't get it back.

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Its not that I won't carve my place with a new team either.

[Humming with his exhale this time, kneading Rin's shoulder and tipping his head down to rub his nose just above his hair, Oikawa let's him just talk with those quieter words.]

No, you have a point there. I'm leaving my team in good hands, my kouhai are smart and eager to get stronger, but I know the setter taking my place is worried he won't live up to what I built.

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[ Rin lets his eyes close at that, making a quiet sound as if to assure Oikawa that he's listening. ] That's good, you won't have to worry, but that setter- [ There's a slight hesitance to the word, his lack of familiarity with the sport showing. ] -shouldn't worry either. The team'll be different just because you're not there, but it can still be good even if it isn't the same. [ He huffs out a small laugh, opening his eyes once more to watch the rise and fall of his friend's chest, something that draws his hand over so he can place a palm against it, soothed by rhythmic breathing. ] Ah, you've got me all nostalgic. Wonder what my team would've become if... If things were like they are for you, if I left earlier. [ But there's sadness to his tone, wistful in nature, and Rin grows quiet for a few more moments. ] Can I ask you something, Tooru?

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[Oikawa continues the idle little gestures, just touching and holding and relaxing like this - it's kind of nice. For as much as he bundles up with Iwaizumi, they smell totally different. Iwaizumi smells kind of sweaty, kind of musky, and Rin smells much lighter. There's still a scent of sweat, but everyone smells a little here - it's not really unpleasant at least. Breathing in deep and exhaling quietly with that hand on his chest, Oikawa shifts mildly to look down through blond hair to watch him curiously - he can hear that wistful tone.]

Yeah, fire away.

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[ Rin's gaze flicks upward, then makes a downward sweep as uncertainty shows on his expression, making it almost clear that he's deliberating over whether or not to say something - if there's any question of that it's cleared away by the hesitance in his tone. ] If there was someone important to you that... wasn't here, in this creepy place, would you... want them to be? Here with you?

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Hmmm.... if Iwa-chan wasn't here, would I want him here with me?

[Aha. Its a selfish answer and for a long moment, he stews on it. It's bad that his answer is instant, isn't it? What kind of friend is he, ahahaha...]

Truthfully? [Hhe almost doesn't want tosay, and it shows in how he hides his face in Rin's hair.] Yeah. I'd have to say yeah. I'd still want him here.

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[ Rin's following breaths waver, unsteady just as his voice, his thoughts, his feelings seem. Still, he tries to laugh, the sound stilted. ] Yeah. Yeah, I get that. Especially if it's the only way you'd be able to see them again, right?

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Mm. So don't feel like you're bad, for wanting to see your Iwa-chan.

[He says it gently, understanding even if he doesn't know the full context; there's no way he could know or understand that much with as little as he knows. It still feels heavy, the way Rin tries to chuckle - so Oikawa just rubs his face into blond hair before shifting back enough to comb it back and look down at him.]

You're just like anyone else, you want familiar faces. Like, if we're trapped here for longer than we could even think about now, you'd want at least a chance to say something. [Apologies for dumb things. Thanks, for being there up until the moment they parted.]

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[ Just like anyone else... Such a statement doesn't feel like it should be true, though Rin hardly thinks of himself as anything close to special, as that might make it seem. ] I don't deserve to see him again. [ It's barely a whisper, maybe too quiet to be heard, but Rin's tone wavers and he feels suddenly too vulnerable, pulling away from Oikawa so he can sit up, arms wrapped around his knees. ] I... Let myself think I'd be able to, even though I know it's impossible, or it's supposed to be. [ Dead people don't come back normally, after all. He heaves a sigh, low and distinctively sad. ] I was being stupid. I don't even get why I'm talking about it.

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[Oikawa hears it even if Rin speaks it far too quietly, like he doesn't want to be heard; he lets him up though, even as he props himself up on an elbow in following, he listens as Rin finishes.]

You don't deserve to be miserable though either, Rin.

[He says it lightly, even if he knows that once again he seems to be missing a piece of the puzzle; he can make enough of a guess. Reaching out again, tugging Rin with his knees up and all back down into curling into him, Oikawa tucks that blond head under his chin.]

You can talk about it just to get the idea out. I'll say I make a pretty good soundboard, even if you aren't looking to say anything in particular though, okay?

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[ Rin huffs out a breath in exasperation at Oikawa's behaviour, but most of the sentiment is in a fair amount of amusement as he lets himself be dragged back down. How stubborn... At least he doesn't pry too much, and he doesn't have to fake his usual smiles with how he can hide his face into the other's neck or against his chest. ] You'd change your mind if you knew better. [ He murmurs, but there's only a beat before he laughs, much louder than his earlier spoken words, and burrows closer, all as distraction. ] Mm, I'll remember that, Tooru. You've still got enough room for me here, right? I'll just be staying a couple nights if anything.

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Course we've got room for you.

[Oikawa just shuts his eyes once Rin settles in again, hardly thinking much of it when he burrows against his neck because it doesn't feel strange to him at all. He'd change his mind if he knew better, huh... he won't ask, not now. But that is filed away into the back of his mind, that there is so much more to Rin than he expresses - he has been able to sense it, that some things were just as fake as his own, but those kinds of personalities hide something deeper. Always.]

You can always settle with me here, alright? I'm available~