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[What gives him the right???]

...Jeeze, you're really serious about this pudding stuff. I'm not gonna eat two by myself.

[Is that even allowed? Shouldn't he be on a super-volley diet?]

Do you even know what you're sorry about? Or are you just saying this stuff to put me in a good mood?

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I know what I'm sorry about.

[Turning his eyes down now, shifting a foot to rub the heel of his shoe into the floor, Oikawa almost looks like a child after being scolded - at least until his eyes turn up and he offers a half smile.]

I got out of hand with teasing and I pushed too hard. [I always do that, that's just me. Don't hate me...]

ALL OF THESE THREADS ARE MAKING ME UPSET.

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..Yeah.

[Time to breakaway from that eye contact, settling on the floor instead -- just to the side. Like he's spotted a mouse or something.]

I...guess I kinda overreacted too. I ended up hurting your feelings in the end, huh?

[Not to say he'd be more accepting of being weird cafeteria homos, but he could have not acted like a Kardashian about it.]

IM SORRY AT LEAST YOU SEE HIS TRUE TRASH NATURE??

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No, it's more. [Scratching the back of his head, staying on his half even if he moves with Yosuke to sitting on the floor, Oikawa stretches his legs out ahead of him and lets his eyes go back to his shoes instead.]

It's more like I was testing something. Sorry. Iwa-chan says this is why I don't have a lot of friends - I'm kind of trash. I push to get my way when I'm not even sure exactly what I wanted out of doing that crap. [I wanted to figure out if I'm actually into guys or if someones just special. What dokis, who dokis, what is even a doki.]

NO!!!!!!!!!

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Testing something?

[Tiiiime to make things aaawkward. He momentarily, mentally treads over the possible things Oikawa could've been testing, but is immediately distracted by the concept of him not having friends????? Oikawa's supposed to be a jock.]

Err, aren't you in charge of the volleyball stuff? You have tons of friends just from that by itself.

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[It's easy to gloss over what he was testing, mostly because Oikawa can feel his ears color at the idea - he shouldn't have been using Yosuke as his guinea pig of all people, jeez. Letting him get distracted by that next bit, even if it isn't any easier to talk about, Oikawa gives a half laugh.]

I... okay, I'm the captain, and I have teammates, but Iwa-chan, Mattsun and Makki are kind of my only friends? I mean - friends who know me. The real me. [Ah, weren't they just talking about Personas hahaa..]

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[He had a fleeting idea that Oikawa maaaay have thought he was gay? But it came and went, like a thief in the night. Why would anyone ever think such a thing anyway?]

Even if you only have a few, they're still important..but what's that about? The real you?

[He understands the concept, of course, this is him prying now.]

Don't tell me you're leading a weird double life or something -- you're not a serial killer, are you?!

sry yosuke did you mean to stumble on insecurity issues

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Haa, no, of course not something so weird like that - though a double life would be kind of cool. [Not the serial killer bit, but anything else. His eyes glitter with the thought for a half second, before it's already gone again because the truth about how normal he is settles in once more. Wiggling his toes mildly in his shoes, eyes on the movement instead of looking up when he should, Oikawa keeps this smile up.]

I mean more that I'm really... good at lying. About myself, to myself, to other people. I'm really an asshole, under all these smiles and warm gestures. I'm hyper competitive and I want to know about people so I can know their weaknesses - I get a lot of satisfaction in being better that people, when that alone just makes me more like garbage.

of course,,,,hes a pro

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[That's concerning anyway?! Don't go sparkly-eyed when serial killers are on deck. Somehow, hearing about Oikawa's competitive nature isn't all that startling. He is a sports guy, and he's serious about what he does.

Ahead of saying anything, he moves from his spot to join Oikawa on the floor, sitting beside him -- pudding..s... in arm.]

Isn't that what makes you a good captain? Even if you call it being an asshole or whatever, being able to do stuff like that -- pinpointing other people's weak spots. We'd have to designate a person for that too. Wouldn't call her an asshole, either.

i see what you did there

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[STOP THAT HE GOT EXCITED ABOUT BEING SPECIAL, NOT A PSYCHO.]

I use it against other people - it's probably not the same as what you're meaning. Like - targeting a first year who can't receive the ball well yet to keep getting points off them. Or pressuring the setter on the other team because I know their history and their flaws and the things they're afraid of.

[When Yosuke settles down beside him, Oikawa hesitates about looking over when he admits the ugliest truth.]

Or by wanting to punch a kouhai because he's better than me, with half as much practice.

;)

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Well, yeah, I'm saying you should do that. It's their fault for making holes.

[Says the PROBABLY WEAKEST LINK on the v-team.]

Or, isn't it their fault for sending out someone who's not ready? In a way, you're kinda forcing them to try harder.

[Not even to offer excuses, but a different perspective.]

Like, instead of punching that guy, maybe figure out what he sucks at and get him back? You're one of the best guys out there anyway.

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[The more Yosuke talks, the more Oikawa finds himself slowly looking over until he's looking at him from over his arms - which he wound up setting on top of his knees when he drew his legs up, like he could hide this ugly feeling of insecurity and disgust with himself. Giving this wry sort of smile - something a lot more genuine than the smile he had been wearing before, Oikawa just looks at him for a few moments.]

... You're making me sound cool, jeez. I'm telling you I'm a terrible person and you're turning it to sound like I'm not.

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I didn't say anything about you being cool.

[That's a better face than what he'd been wearing all along.]

Is that why you chucked the ball at my face that time?! Totally not cool at all. But if you're gonna be in charge, you should have some expectations...I guess you just gotta work on not being a sore loser sometimes?

But I haven't seen you doing anything dumb.

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I haven't really been doing anything like that here because it just... falls apart when life and death are a thing. It's petty and stupid and I'm aware of it, but sometimes I take jabs because I can.

[But it feels a million times better just talking about it, like this. Even if Oikawa has that niggling fear that Yosuke is going to call him trash and leave, just abruptly go - he's still sitting here talking with him. Holding pudding and everything.]

... Eat your dumb pudding already, Yo-chan.

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[Rather than following those instructions, he grabs a pudding container by it's top and pokes the cup-part against Oikawa's cheek.]

How am I supposed to eat anything when you're getting all serious?

[PROD, PROD.]

Quit worrying so much about the small stuff...err, but don't do weird stuff in front of everyone again. Like in the cafeteria.

...Did you ever even explain what that was about?!

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[Mhhhhhhhh - Oikawa just lets out a meh sound while being prodded with the pudding container until he brings that up. Shifting his eyes aside, reaching up like he can combat the pudding, Oikawa tries to dodge that topic.]

Yes, yes, I won't do it again, promise~~ [Nope not explaining.]

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[Haha, funny noises. He'll basically shove the pudding into Oikawa's offered palm, then!]

Good. But now the whole school's gonna think we're up to something weird.

[Baka.]

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[He'll accept the one pudding, at least, but the other will get pushed back at him if he tries to give him it.]

Are we up to something weird, Yo-chan? Was it weird for you? [He asks while hiding his honest curiosity behind his teasing tone - is it really that weird?]

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[He only gets one for now, because they're still having a Serious Convo and haven't yet treaded silly time.]

Huh -- what?! No! See, you're already doing it again!

[DON'T EXPERIMENT WITH YOSUKE, HE SUCKS.]

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[Laughing softly and reaching out, hooking an arm around Yosuke's shoulders and scooting in right against his shoulder, leaning in to hide his face down into the fabric of his jacket, Oikawa keeps his head down when he can stop laughing.]

Sorry. I'm not doing it on purpose. Is this really weird to you though, this... Me being clingy.

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[Way to be handsy when it's totally not appropriate at all! Except it's too appropriate, which makes it inappropriate as hell.]

...You're totally doing it on purpose now, aren't you?

[He's not inching away, though, partly convinced that this halfsies hug is part of his gay gimmick.]

There's a difference between being clingy and doing what you were doing back there.

bro are you going to be the first he explains this shit to...

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[Oikawa doesn't nestle closer, doesn't pull away, doesn't lift his head, but when he answers, his tone is more serious.]

Do you hate it? I'm really just this clingy with certain people, is it really uncomfortable for you?

bro......bout to make things awk again

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[Oikawa is on a roll when it comes to misunderstanding situations. It's been this way since birth. There's a sigh, despite the change in tone.]

I'm glad you think we're close -- cause I think so too, but all's I'm saying is to be careful with some of the stuff you do! Like I said, they're probably gonna start rumors now...

[Or no one would give a shit, considering their circumstances?!]

brO.....

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What are the rumors going to be, that we're gay? Gay and dating?

[This time when he shifts, Oikawa has his eyes turned up and is watching Yosuke very carefully, expression carefully crafted into that plastered smile again because his own fears about being into guys is still far too fragile - he'd lose friends, wouldn't he, if he was, is that it? Is it even just guys, or is it just Iwaizumi still, this is what Oikawa hasn't figured out yet.]

BRO!!!

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[That's almost too defensive. He frowns a bit, though the way Oikawa's said it...he practically feels guilty.

Practically.]

Well yeah, what else would it be?

[At least he's held back from shushing him.]

...What's with that look about? You're not actually-?

[His own brows arch upward, perplexed to a degree. Bigtime sports guys aren't usually gay, but?]