[Oikawa spies Yosuke peeking around that dumb corner and he'd tease him for being on the look out if he weren't trying to sincerely apologize; so he simply marches on over and pushes the pudding into his arms.]
[Not if Oikawa stuffs one in Yosuke's jacket pocket and tucks the other in the neck of his shirt so he can't possibly drop them - then he backs up with his hands up as if to say 'not taking them'. His expression is more serious than he intends it to be, still apologetic even with the corners of his mouth turning up.
They're being dumb as fuck about these dumb puddings.]
[NEITHER WERE OPEN OKAY THAT IS THE IMPORTANT PART HERE.
Folding his hands behinds his back so Yosuke can't stuff those puddings in his arms in an attempt tobe rid of them, Oikawa just steps back and leans on the opposite wall a bit, eyes shifting aside in a tell that shows he isn't being entirely honest with himself.]
I brought two because I had two things to apologize for. I didn't want any after all.
[Turning his eyes down now, shifting a foot to rub the heel of his shoe into the floor, Oikawa almost looks like a child after being scolded - at least until his eyes turn up and he offers a half smile.]
I got out of hand with teasing and I pushed too hard. [I always do that, that's just me. Don't hate me...]
No, it's more. [Scratching the back of his head, staying on his half even if he moves with Yosuke to sitting on the floor, Oikawa stretches his legs out ahead of him and lets his eyes go back to his shoes instead.]
It's more like I was testing something. Sorry. Iwa-chan says this is why I don't have a lot of friends - I'm kind of trash. I push to get my way when I'm not even sure exactly what I wanted out of doing that crap. [I wanted to figure out if I'm actually into guys or if someones just special. What dokis, who dokis, what is even a doki.]
[Tiiiime to make things aaawkward. He momentarily, mentally treads over the possible things Oikawa could've been testing, but is immediately distracted by the concept of him not having friends????? Oikawa's supposed to be a jock.]
Err, aren't you in charge of the volleyball stuff? You have tons of friends just from that by itself.
[It's easy to gloss over what he was testing, mostly because Oikawa can feel his ears color at the idea - he shouldn't have been using Yosuke as his guinea pig of all people, jeez. Letting him get distracted by that next bit, even if it isn't any easier to talk about, Oikawa gives a half laugh.]
I... okay, I'm the captain, and I have teammates, but Iwa-chan, Mattsun and Makki are kind of my only friends? I mean - friends who know me. The real me. [Ah, weren't they just talking about Personas hahaa..]
[He had a fleeting idea that Oikawa maaaay have thought he was gay? But it came and went, like a thief in the night. Why would anyone ever think such a thing anyway?]
Even if you only have a few, they're still important..but what's that about? The real you?
[He understands the concept, of course, this is him prying now.]
Don't tell me you're leading a weird double life or something -- you're not a serial killer, are you?!
Haa, no, of course not something so weird like that - though a double life would be kind of cool. [Not the serial killer bit, but anything else. His eyes glitter with the thought for a half second, before it's already gone again because the truth about how normal he is settles in once more. Wiggling his toes mildly in his shoes, eyes on the movement instead of looking up when he should, Oikawa keeps this smile up.]
I mean more that I'm really... good at lying. About myself, to myself, to other people. I'm really an asshole, under all these smiles and warm gestures. I'm hyper competitive and I want to know about people so I can know their weaknesses - I get a lot of satisfaction in being better that people, when that alone just makes me more like garbage.
[That's concerning anyway?! Don't go sparkly-eyed when serial killers are on deck. Somehow, hearing about Oikawa's competitive nature isn't all that startling. He is a sports guy, and he's serious about what he does.
Ahead of saying anything, he moves from his spot to join Oikawa on the floor, sitting beside him -- pudding..s... in arm.]
Isn't that what makes you a good captain? Even if you call it being an asshole or whatever, being able to do stuff like that -- pinpointing other people's weak spots. We'd have to designate a person for that too. Wouldn't call her an asshole, either.
[STOP THAT HE GOT EXCITED ABOUT BEING SPECIAL, NOT A PSYCHO.]
I use it against other people - it's probably not the same as what you're meaning. Like - targeting a first year who can't receive the ball well yet to keep getting points off them. Or pressuring the setter on the other team because I know their history and their flaws and the things they're afraid of.
[When Yosuke settles down beside him, Oikawa hesitates about looking over when he admits the ugliest truth.]
Or by wanting to punch a kouhai because he's better than me, with half as much practice.
[The more Yosuke talks, the more Oikawa finds himself slowly looking over until he's looking at him from over his arms - which he wound up setting on top of his knees when he drew his legs up, like he could hide this ugly feeling of insecurity and disgust with himself. Giving this wry sort of smile - something a lot more genuine than the smile he had been wearing before, Oikawa just looks at him for a few moments.]
... You're making me sound cool, jeez. I'm telling you I'm a terrible person and you're turning it to sound like I'm not.
[That's a better face than what he'd been wearing all along.]
Is that why you chucked the ball at my face that time?! Totally not cool at all. But if you're gonna be in charge, you should have some expectations...I guess you just gotta work on not being a sore loser sometimes?
I haven't really been doing anything like that here because it just... falls apart when life and death are a thing. It's petty and stupid and I'm aware of it, but sometimes I take jabs because I can.
[But it feels a million times better just talking about it, like this. Even if Oikawa has that niggling fear that Yosuke is going to call him trash and leave, just abruptly go - he's still sitting here talking with him. Holding pudding and everything.]
[ It's hard to believe that, honestly, but if Oikawa's insisting on them meeting up then maybe he'll be able to see if it's really true. ]
alright ill be there in 5
[ And true to his word, Rin'll be there, wandering the paths around the outskirts of the courtyard, head mostly bowed rather than held high as it usually is. ]
[It's easy enough to spot Rin out in the courtyard, and Oikawa hardly hesitates to cram his phone in his pocket - he had been about to text him to get his attention and thought of something better. Walking out into the paths, picking up his pace to catch up, Oikawa calls out to him only just as he was approaching and threw his arms open.
[ Truthfully? He isn't, and so Rin freezes up initially when he turns right into Oikawa's open arms. He doesn't pull away at least, but his reaction is belated while he's embraced before he finally lets a laugh bubble out of him nervously. ]
Missed me, Tooru? [ His tone is teasing, but a far cry from the normal ease those words may have been spoken with, arms gradually lifting from his own sides to return the hug. It feels like it's been a while since he's gotten something like this. ]
[Mhhhhhhhh - Oikawa just lets out a meh sound while being prodded with the pudding container until he brings that up. Shifting his eyes aside, reaching up like he can combat the pudding, Oikawa tries to dodge that topic.]
Yes, yes, I won't do it again, promise~~ [Nope not explaining.]
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Date: 2015-10-29 03:20 am (UTC)Nope, they're yours now. Just take them.
(no subject)
Date: 2015-10-29 03:44 am (UTC)No! This doesn't even have anything to do with pudding!
[HE'S GONNA ACCIDENTALLY DROP THEM IN SHOVING THEM BACK..]
(no subject)
Date: 2015-10-29 03:48 am (UTC)[Not if Oikawa stuffs one in Yosuke's jacket pocket and tucks the other in the neck of his shirt so he can't possibly drop them - then he backs up with his hands up as if to say 'not taking them'. His expression is more serious than he intends it to be, still apologetic even with the corners of his mouth turning up.
They're being dumb as fuck about these dumb puddings.]
(no subject)
Date: 2015-10-29 04:33 am (UTC)Why did you bring so many?!
[Moreover, why is this idiotic situation making him feel bad?! Somethin' about da way u look tonight.]
Did you even eat any yourself-?!
(no subject)
Date: 2015-10-29 04:37 am (UTC)Folding his hands behinds his back so Yosuke can't stuff those puddings in his arms in an attempt tobe rid of them, Oikawa just steps back and leans on the opposite wall a bit, eyes shifting aside in a tell that shows he isn't being entirely honest with himself.]
I brought two because I had two things to apologize for. I didn't want any after all.
(no subject)
Date: 2015-10-29 04:51 am (UTC)...Jeeze, you're really serious about this pudding stuff. I'm not gonna eat two by myself.
[Is that even allowed? Shouldn't he be on a super-volley diet?]
Do you even know what you're sorry about? Or are you just saying this stuff to put me in a good mood?
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Date: 2015-10-29 04:58 am (UTC)[Turning his eyes down now, shifting a foot to rub the heel of his shoe into the floor, Oikawa almost looks like a child after being scolded - at least until his eyes turn up and he offers a half smile.]
I got out of hand with teasing and I pushed too hard. [I always do that, that's just me. Don't hate me...]
ALL OF THESE THREADS ARE MAKING ME UPSET.
Date: 2015-10-29 05:07 am (UTC)[Time to breakaway from that eye contact, settling on the floor instead -- just to the side. Like he's spotted a mouse or something.]
I...guess I kinda overreacted too. I ended up hurting your feelings in the end, huh?
[Not to say he'd be more accepting of being weird cafeteria homos, but he could have not acted like a Kardashian about it.]
IM SORRY AT LEAST YOU SEE HIS TRUE TRASH NATURE??
Date: 2015-10-29 05:16 am (UTC)It's more like I was testing something. Sorry. Iwa-chan says this is why I don't have a lot of friends - I'm kind of trash. I push to get my way when I'm not even sure exactly what I wanted out of doing that crap. [I wanted to figure out if I'm actually into guys or if someones just special. What dokis, who dokis, what is even a doki.]
NO!!!!!!!!!
Date: 2015-10-29 05:22 am (UTC)[Tiiiime to make things aaawkward. He momentarily, mentally treads over the possible things Oikawa could've been testing, but is immediately distracted by the concept of him not having friends????? Oikawa's supposed to be a jock.]
Err, aren't you in charge of the volleyball stuff? You have tons of friends just from that by itself.
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Date: 2015-10-29 05:29 am (UTC)I... okay, I'm the captain, and I have teammates, but Iwa-chan, Mattsun and Makki are kind of my only friends? I mean - friends who know me. The real me. [Ah, weren't they just talking about Personas hahaa..]
(no subject)
Date: 2015-10-29 06:05 am (UTC)Even if you only have a few, they're still important..but what's that about? The real you?
[He understands the concept, of course, this is him prying now.]
Don't tell me you're leading a weird double life or something -- you're not a serial killer, are you?!
sry yosuke did you mean to stumble on insecurity issues
Date: 2015-10-29 06:11 am (UTC)I mean more that I'm really... good at lying. About myself, to myself, to other people. I'm really an asshole, under all these smiles and warm gestures. I'm hyper competitive and I want to know about people so I can know their weaknesses - I get a lot of satisfaction in being better that people, when that alone just makes me more like garbage.
of course,,,,hes a pro
Date: 2015-10-29 06:21 am (UTC)Ahead of saying anything, he moves from his spot to join Oikawa on the floor, sitting beside him -- pudding..s... in arm.]
Isn't that what makes you a good captain? Even if you call it being an asshole or whatever, being able to do stuff like that -- pinpointing other people's weak spots. We'd have to designate a person for that too. Wouldn't call her an asshole, either.
i see what you did there
Date: 2015-10-29 06:47 am (UTC)I use it against other people - it's probably not the same as what you're meaning. Like - targeting a first year who can't receive the ball well yet to keep getting points off them. Or pressuring the setter on the other team because I know their history and their flaws and the things they're afraid of.
[When Yosuke settles down beside him, Oikawa hesitates about looking over when he admits the ugliest truth.]
Or by wanting to punch a kouhai because he's better than me, with half as much practice.
;)
Date: 2015-10-29 07:07 am (UTC)[Says the PROBABLY WEAKEST LINK on the v-team.]
Or, isn't it their fault for sending out someone who's not ready? In a way, you're kinda forcing them to try harder.
[Not even to offer excuses, but a different perspective.]
Like, instead of punching that guy, maybe figure out what he sucks at and get him back? You're one of the best guys out there anyway.
(no subject)
Date: 2015-10-29 07:15 am (UTC)... You're making me sound cool, jeez. I'm telling you I'm a terrible person and you're turning it to sound like I'm not.
(no subject)
Date: 2015-10-30 12:19 am (UTC)[That's a better face than what he'd been wearing all along.]
Is that why you chucked the ball at my face that time?! Totally not cool at all. But if you're gonna be in charge, you should have some expectations...I guess you just gotta work on not being a sore loser sometimes?
But I haven't seen you doing anything dumb.
(no subject)
Date: 2015-11-01 05:59 am (UTC)i want to meet up. i'm bringing the first aid kit, how about the courtyard?
(no subject)
Date: 2015-11-01 05:43 pm (UTC)[But it feels a million times better just talking about it, like this. Even if Oikawa has that niggling fear that Yosuke is going to call him trash and leave, just abruptly go - he's still sitting here talking with him. Holding pudding and everything.]
... Eat your dumb pudding already, Yo-chan.
(no subject)
Date: 2015-11-01 06:27 pm (UTC)alright
ill be there in 5
[ And true to his word, Rin'll be there, wandering the paths around the outskirts of the courtyard, head mostly bowed rather than held high as it usually is. ]
(no subject)
Date: 2015-11-01 06:56 pm (UTC)Hopefully Rin is prepared for the bear hug.]
Riiiin!
(no subject)
Date: 2015-11-03 12:12 am (UTC)Missed me, Tooru? [ His tone is teasing, but a far cry from the normal ease those words may have been spoken with, arms gradually lifting from his own sides to return the hug. It feels like it's been a while since he's gotten something like this. ]
(no subject)
Date: 2015-11-03 03:22 am (UTC)How am I supposed to eat anything when you're getting all serious?
[PROD, PROD.]
Quit worrying so much about the small stuff...err, but don't do weird stuff in front of everyone again. Like in the cafeteria.
...Did you ever even explain what that was about?!
(no subject)
Date: 2015-11-03 05:44 am (UTC)Yes, yes, I won't do it again, promise~~ [Nope not explaining.]